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Can You Marry Research With Entrepreneurship?
Living a double life between entrepreneurship and academic research is not easy. This blog post reviews the reasons why this is so, and ideas for how you might nevertheless succeed in balancing on the edge of the two worlds.
Why Did I REALLY Leave Academia? Top 16 Reasons
Since I just finally defended my PhD thesis, now, I can finally talk about the real reasons why I left academia (although I didn’t really quit doing research! — these are two separate and almost unrelated things…). And, I didn’t necessarily leave for the reasons that most people think I did.
What You Should Know Before Starting a PhD
This blog post is dedicated to Master students who are at the end of their Master’s programs, and consider going to grad school. What are the pros and cons of going for the academic career, as compared to starting an industry job? What is the best motivation to start a PhD?
Safety VS Freedom: The Landscape of Post-PhD Careers
In this blog post, Natalia Bielczyk and Elisenda Bonet-Carne discuss the similarities and differences between different post-PhD career tracks. There is a whole landscape of possibilities!
High-flyers
When working with academics planning their first post-PhD jobs in the industry, one pattern keeps coming back: the more accomplished the person is in academic terms, the more difficult time they have with finding their first jobs outside academia. The underdogs on the other hand — the early career researchers who are nowhere near that accomplished, and who are often disrespected by their bosses and considered poor academics — are much quicker and more accurate in finding their next career paths. Often happier there as well.
Things I Learned In Academia, For The Good And For The Bad
Today, I would like to list a few things that I learned while doing science for the last 8 years. Some of these habits are helpful and make my life much easier now, while other things actually make my life harder.
Neuroscience vs Psychometrics. How To Research The Human Mind?
For the whole last decade, I was fallen in love with Neuroscience. I first found out about the concept of investigating the human brain during my undergraduate studies, and from the very start, I knew that this was what I was going to do for a living. The human brain was such a challenging and fascinating concept! And, here is what I think now.
These Dark Hours
The peak is so close; glowing somewhere on the horizon, yet looking like a fata morgana – step after step, and you do not feel like you are coming any closer. I felt exactly the same way while approaching the peak of Kilimanjaro in 2013. I am making this last effort in order to finally submit my PhD thesis now. And this will happen in literally a few hours. I expected it would feel orgasmic, but instead, it feels like a sad relief. Yet, I would like to capture this moment – just for the sake of memory. Maybe one day, I would get back to what I felt when I realised that all this tantalising pain is finally over.
Respect
According to a common opinion, former researchers tend to function really well as entrepreneurs. This is true. However, there is one useful quality missing in academia – which turned out to be very painful to me when I went a little bit more into the entrepreneurial direction. Namely, in academia, no one teaches us how to value our time.
The Tragedy of Commons
The year of 2009 was groundbreaking, for at least two separate reasons. Firstly, on January 3rd of 2009, the genesis block of bitcoin was mined. Secondly, on October 12th of 2009, Elinor Claire “Lin” Ostrom has became the first woman awarded with a Nobel Prize in Economic Sciences, “for her analysis of economic governance, especially the commons”. The clue of this work is a phenomenon known in economy as the tragedy of commons. This phenomenon occurs when a group shares a resource, but at the same time, every individual acts on their own behalf, which is often against the common interest of the community. Can we spot the tragedy of commons in academia?
A Note on TeamWork
Yesterday was a nostalgic day not only for me, but for every Polish person there is. The reason is because one of our little heroes, Tomasz Mackiewicz, is dying in Karakorum, and no one can really save him from death at this point. Climbing in Himalayas can seem like a distant and exotic concept, but one thing we can definitely learn from mountaineers is a team work.
The Hall of Fame
Everything in the world follows some rules – the items move according to classical mechanics, and optimise some trajectory according to some cost function. Apples follow the gravity and fall down from the trees straight towards the ground, and the electric current flows from high towards low electric potential according to the shortest possible trajectory. People also construct their own cost functions, and adjust their behaviour according to the rules present in their environment.
Reviewers
Nothing changed since my childhood: I still enjoy stimuli that are annoying to others, the most. For instance, in the whole process of conducting a research project – from project planning, through combining a team, doing actual research, submission, review process, production and promotion – I actually enjoy the review process the most. There are at least three separate reasons for this.
A Villain Is a Hero of Another Side
As every PhD student at the end of the contract, I slowly get the idea that publishing papers is a minor problem in a researcher’s life. There other, more painful issues, such as the environment fractioning into ‘team Brown’, ‘team Green’ et cetera – especially in circles developing new methods for data analysis. Such friendships and antipathies that last for ages before you even found yourself in the community, and once you appear as a fresh person, you do not necessarily understand why you are actually expected to love Mr Brown and hate Mr Green.
Taking Risks as a Path to Safety
In the famous riddle, you are supposed to connect all the dots with four straight lines. You can sweat and try as long as you like but you will always be just one line short from connecting all of them. Unless you look outside the box, and make yourself space beyond the limited area of the square – then, all of a sudden, everything becomes easy. The point is: as a scientist, you are pressed to do multitasking as well: as opposite to industry, in academia, you need to prove yourself in multiple different roles every day, and the collateral stress is inevitable whenever you are a good or a bad worker. So, how to deal with stress?
The Future of Experimentalists and Data Scientists
I observe two contradictory trends in academia these days. On one hand, experimental researchers flock together into bigger and bigger consortia, in order to collaborate in large groups in order to be able to conduct complex experiments that are so labour- and knowhow- expensive, that it would not be possible to approach them in a more traditional fashion based on an individualistic achievement. On the other hand, anyone who is connected well enough and talented enough, can formulate a research question, search out for the open datasets, conduct a computational study, report the results and post them in a form of a preprint, and then spread the news through the social media.
The Source of Disease
As a scientist, you are doomed to live in a shadow of deadlines, short contracts, and mutual dependencies as you are by definition bound to a dynamic web of people, some of whom might behave differently than expected. The collateral stress is inevitable whenever you are a good or a bad worker. And if you ask your family and friends about what to do with yourself in such conditions, they will all tell you: go for a walk, meditate, go to spa, relax, go to a therapy, grow flowers, stare at the blue sky, listen to your favourite music. All these activities are superficial and do not solve the true problem.
How To Deal with Students as a PhD Candidate?
Initially, I was hesitating for a long time if I can even manage to supervise a student. Namely, if I will be able to catch some good vibes and keep on going regardless of little bumps on the way which naturally pop out during research: you try and fail, and then try and fail again and again… But now, I must say that supervising students is a wonderful experience to me, and I consider it – so far – the most fulfilling part of the PhD track.
What Is the Biggest Problem of Academia?
The popular viewpoint at today’s academia is that the biggest challenges are the reproducibility crisis and publication pressure. Well, is this really The Problem?
Artists and Craftsmen
Researchers have their personal styles of working, and some of them are more like craftsmen, whereas others are more like artists. And the irony is: in order to produce a novel scientific study and publish it well, you need to be an artist, but you also need to be a craftsman – and these two qualities are rarely to be found in one and the same person.
The Course at Genetics
These days, I was thinking a lot about all the factors that hindered my development during the first three years of my PhD. Every time I deliberate on this topic, I come to the same conclusion: the biggest problem I had was being driven by fear. Now the time has come to learn some genetics — and I resolve to do it without opening a single textbook.
Competitiveness
What does the competitiveness come from? It is not a very prominent feature of the Dutch society – this society is more about equity and cooperation. No wonder: once you look at the educational program at the Dutch primary schools, the first class they ever have is ‘working in teams’. Which is very much in opposition to Polish schools where they were always telling us to compete.
YouTube Culture
Just a few years back, kids posting on YouTube were a niche phenomenon with a small audience of hipsters. Now many of these – usually teenage – performers have a nationwide audience. Interestingly, even though YouTube is a completely unsupervised and nonhierarchical system, the mechanisms which evolved in this community are similar to science: similar issues and similar coping strategies.
Going Dark
I sometimes wonder what happens during the maturation process, when people slowly turn from fragile, troubled and empathic PhD students into a bit psychopathic, emotionless and calculated bosses. Everyone believes they will never copy their PIs’ mistakes. So how does it happen? A dispute with my neighbours gave me a hint.
Teaching
Recently I started teaching, and I have a plentora of feelings relating to this new experience. First to say, it is definitely true what they say: 80% of our fears is completely unnecessary.
Second Life
Current November is probably the happiest November by far, even after correction for the weather. You know, when you are a researcher, every happy day is a success itself. And, in addition to that, if you are an ex-depressed person, every happy day is one step away from death and one step towards life. You’ve got to fight for every single day, literally.
Imposter Syndrome
I just had a really wild attack of the imposter complex. This is when you feel that others overestimate your mental and physical capabilities. Pretty much everyone is academia suffers from it, it is just that some people overcome this effect better than others.
Overcoming Fears
Human brain can rewire so quickly… I remember the rainy days four years ago when I first came to Nijmegen and tried to survive at the very place. During my studies I hadn’t had too many programming courses, neither I had opportunities to present science. No wonder that programming and presentations were my two biggest nightmares. Now, they are my two favourite and most relaxing activities at work.
Research or Branding? How To Effectively Self-Manage in Academia
Science is business. If you don’t understand this simple fact, you won’t get too far in academia. Unfortunately, very many of us, PhD candidates, do not understand this. This might be because, in science, the real currency differs from money. In fact, there are several currencies. The number of publications, impact factor, time. So, how to self-manage in these conditions?
On Academia and Whereabouts: Insights From Grad School
In this blog post, I list my recent insights from grad school: on academic structure, team work, and effective networking at conferences. I hope that in case you are an early-stage researcher, these insights turn out to be helpful to you!
Postcard From the Mountains: What Hiking Taught Me About Science
Academic life is not easy. “The closer to the sky, the closer to hell.” Well, so far, I manage somehow but it took me a long time to grow this skin. Hiking helped me get tougher and persevere. So, I created a list of 21 things that mountaineering has taught me about science so far. Some are obvious and cliché, but I hope some of them will be useful to you.
How To Produce a Highly Ranked Publication
I recently got to see what it looks like to build a serious scientific article from scratch. I usually meet papers from the other side, reverse-engineering the author’s intentions from thousands of details. This time I sit in lab meetings and watch Postdocs brainstorm how to turn a very simple thought into an influential paper. It is so interesting, and it gives me hope.
On Progress in My PhD and in Life
- I’m thrilled about my PhD progress, particularly programming a game for mice using Blender. Despite challenges, like the flu, this project feels incredibly rewarding and aligns perfectly with my academic background.
- Reflecting on life, I’ve noticed that as I age, my connections with people evolve. Surprisingly, by focusing less on relationships, I’ve met many fascinating individuals, especially during my travels and after moving closer to the university.
- I’ve also grown more philosophical, trusting that setbacks, like my stock market loss, happen for a reason. This belief in a higher purpose helps me balance my professional goals with personal contentment.
Summer School in Chile
My first visit to South America was eye-opening, where I experienced a mix of Americanized culture, high prices despite being a third-world region, and evident social inequalities, especially in places like Panama City. Living with a Chilean family taught me about resourcefulness and the warmth of the locals, who even renovated their home out of excitement for hosting a European guest. This experience sparked new ideas for my dream home. The summer school in Chile was transformative. I learned to focus on my own growth rather than comparing myself to others, which led to personal success, new connections, and a renewed belief in my ability to tackle challenging projects.
Rough Beginnings of a Doctoral Program
I find great satisfaction in achieving internal coherence by aligning my professional and personal pursuits, like studying the brain and pushing my physical limits in mountaineering. This balance brings clarity and purpose to my life. Mountaineering has taught me valuable lessons about setting clear goals, assembling the right tools and team, and maintaining focus. These principles have significantly reduced my work-related stress and increased my confidence in my PhD project. My new PhD project on ADHD is both ambitious and challenging, involving cutting-edge research techniques like optogenetics and two-photon imaging. While risky, I am confident in my ability to succeed, as my experiences have strengthened my resilience.
Like a Machine
I’m juggling two complex neuroscience projects—one focusing on expansive brain networks with fMRI, and the other on optogenetics and two-photon imaging in mice. Balancing these tasks with my role in the PhD council and workshop organization is a true test of my abilities. Despite initial fears of sharing unpublished work, I’ve learned that presenting findings at conferences can lead to valuable connections with journal editors. This has changed my approach, making me more open to collaboration and peer review. Beyond my academic commitments, I’m planning a move to save money and prepare for future travels, including a challenging hike up Gerlach in the Tatra Mountains. My systematic upbringing helps me manage a busy life filled with to-do lists and ambitious goals.
Don’t Sleep! Sightsee
After returning from the Society for Neuroscience Annual Meeting in San Diego, I realized the importance of being selective with information. Neuroscience has grown so vast that it’s impossible to grasp everything, and I now focus on the essentials rather than trying to absorb it all. My perspective on working in the USA has shifted. While I used to fear the American work culture, I’ve become more confident and open to the idea of living and working there. I now understand that when you enjoy your work and stay active, you can handle the demands with enthusiasm. My recent experiences have brought me a newfound sense of well-being and optimism. Regular travel and daily exercise have boosted my spirits, and I’m determined to maintain this positive mindset as I continue pursuing my passions and professional goals.
I’m Starting a PhD Program All Over Again!
Self-esteem is complex: it often feels like you deserve the best, but when you achieve something valuable, you might act defensively and risk losing it. Securing a doctoral contract with my own project was a significant achievement, yet I found myself obsessively controlling every detail, which hindered my progress. Realizing my self-sabotage, I’m now focusing on embracing my capabilities, remembering past successes, and moving forward with confidence. It’s time to overcome doubt and dive into work, starting now.
How To Develop Yourself in Academia
In less than two years in science, I’ve realized it’s much like the music industry: success often hinges on networking and strategic partnerships, much like Pitbull’s rise to fame through collaborations. I’m learning to embrace this “game” of science, understanding that building alliances and engaging with media can enhance one’s career and lead to successful publications. I’ve found my calling in Computational Psychiatry, where I use advanced tools to understand and correct mental disorders. This work resonates deeply with me, blending my engineering background with my passion for understanding the human mind.
A Lonely Spring in Nijmegen
Arriving in the Netherlands, I initially struggled with cultural differences and social norms but gradually adapted, finding solace in the open and caring atmosphere and appreciating the supportive social safety net. The complex underground lab facilities at my workplace fascinated me, revealing an intricate world of scientific research and providing a thrilling contrast to my daily routine. Embracing Dutch culture, I’ve engaged with local festivals, joined the doctoral student council, and made strides in learning the language, all while feeling satisfied with my job stability and increased salary.
Finding Your Way In a New Workplace: How To Adapt and Stand Out?
Transitioning to a new lab, I’ve encountered a bustling and noisy environment with more women and experimentalists, a stark contrast to my previous quiet and solitary space, making adaptation a challenge. My new boss has been welcoming and engaging, sparking intriguing discussions about consciousness and the role of the thalamus, which has rekindled my enthusiasm for neuroscience. Inspired by Arnold Schwarzenegger’s story of persistence, I’m setting ambitious goals in my field, including a paper and conference presentation, aiming to make a significant impact despite the challenges.
Faith and Knowledge in Neuroscience
I’ve come to realize that science, particularly neuroscience, is influenced by trends, funding, and personal beliefs rather than pure knowledge. The field is diverse, with varying beliefs about brain functions and mood, leading to conflicting approaches and skepticism. Publishing in scientific journals is a challenge due to editors’ biases and the potential rejection of innovative ideas if they don’t align with prevailing beliefs. I’m currently working on a visionary paper and hope it will be well-received despite these obstacles. Observing the scientific community, I find that many scientists exhibit childlike traits and repetitive behaviors, such as rewatching favorite documentaries or using exercise balls at work. This reflects a deeper pattern of curiosity and habits that seem inherent to the scientific mindset.
How To Deal With a Sudden Job Loss
Recent weeks have been incredibly tough. After moving to a new country with my fiancé and starting a dream PhD, I’ve faced the harsh reality that my work involves abstract equations and impractical ideas, rather than meaningful neuroscience research. With the scarcity of new doctoral positions and funding cuts, combined with personal life constraints, I struggled with the decision to abandon my current project. Yet, an unexpected opportunity arose at a major Dutch hospital, offering hope amidst these challenges. Despite a contract termination and the pressures of academia, I’ve found a potential path forward. Reflecting on my experiences and conversations with friends, I’ve realized there are many routes to happiness and success. I’m now considering alternative career paths and post-doctorate opportunities, embracing the possibility of a fresh start in the New Year.
Preparing for Evaluation Day
Reflecting on the era we’re living in, I see both overwhelming challenges and exciting opportunities. From the rise of electronic money to the blend of cultures and the vast knowledge available online, today’s times offer a mix of awe and complexity. As my performance review approaches, I face a pivotal moment in my career. A potential three-year contract and a PhD title would allow me to focus on my passion in neuroscience, specifically exploring why people differ so greatly in their reactions and experiences. Driven by my own past struggles with Major Depressive Disorder (MDD), I’m dedicated to understanding neurotransmitter networks to combat depression. This personal battle fuels my work and motivates me daily, hoping my commitment will be recognized in my upcoming evaluation.
Tips For a Young Scientist
Recently, I was struck by Prof. Brzezinski’s candid critique of conspiracy theories surrounding the Smoleńsk catastrophe. His statement challenged the prevailing political and media narratives, reflecting a much-needed act of bravery in Poland’s ongoing struggle with widespread misinformation. In exploring Noam Chomsky’s critique of Artificial Intelligence, I found his concerns about AI’s indiscriminate use valid. Chomsky argues that using AI without understanding the underlying data structure can lead to misguided conclusions, particularly in complex fields like genetics and neuroscience. Following advice from Peter Medawar’s essay “Advice to a Young Scientist,” I’ve learned the importance of being assertive and persistent in scientific inquiries. Rather than being overly polite, being bold and inquisitive has proven more effective in advancing my research and understanding.
My First Time at the Society for Neuroscience Annual Meeting
Attending my first Society for Neuroscience (SfN) Annual Meeting in New Orleans was a thrilling experience. Despite the conference’s vast scale, I felt at ease and enjoyed exploring the diverse sessions and interactions without the stress of presenting. Though I had to manage my expenses carefully, including spending hours at the Atlanta airport for compensation, the trip was financially successful. I found it rewarding to be frugal and still make a positive impact, with a small net gain from the adventure. I was pleasantly surprised by the scale of the computational neuroscience community and the engaging encounters I had during my spontaneous explorations. This experience reinforced my sense of belonging in the global neuroscience network and highlighted the importance of a supportive professional and personal circle.
The Open Field
Recently, I’ve felt like a rat in an “open field” experiment, where I’m navigating a research project that’s not meeting my expectations. Despite the challenging situation, I used my negotiation skills to gain the freedom to reshape my project completely, which has been a surprising and empowering development. PhD students often face frustration, with few achieving their ideal research experiences. This frustration is amplified by systemic issues in academia, where supervisors may be insulated from scrutiny while doctoral students endure rigorous evaluations. Reflecting on my experiences and recent conversations with my boss, I’m aware of the challenges and contradictions within academia. Despite the difficulties, I’m optimistic about the future and excited about the possibilities that lie ahead, both personally and professionally.
Preparing for Summer Schools in Computational Neuroscience
As I prepare for a summer school tour, I’m both excited and overwhelmed by the rapid advancements in computational neuroscience. The field’s vastness and the intense competition make me sometimes long for a quieter, more focused research niche. Recent high-profile projects, like Henry Markram’s €1 billion cortical column reconstruction and the Allen Institute’s $300 million brain slicing initiative, highlight the immense funding in neuroscience. While promising, they also attract a lot of pseudo-experts, complicating the search for genuine scientific talent. Currently undecided about my specialization, I hope the upcoming summer schools will provide clarity. My goal is to align my PhD focus with my true interests and ultimately secure a position that fits my career aspirations amidst the stringent requirements of the Dutch system.
Busy Days at the University
I’ve been accepted into three prestigious summer schools in Computational Neuroscience this year—Russia, China, and Poland. This is a significant achievement given the competitive acceptance rates, and I’m thrilled about the opportunities these schools represent. Negotiating with my boss was a challenge, as they were skeptical about me attending all three schools, fearing I saw them as free vacations. After a two-hour discussion, I convinced them of the value these summer schools bring to my research and future career. My schedule is packed with preparations, from finalizing my master’s thesis to preparing for intense summer school sessions. I’m also juggling various tasks, including a personal branding workshop, departmental meetings, and late-night lab work, all while maintaining a busy personal life.
How to Adapt and Push a Research Project Forward?
In the Netherlands, scientific presentations are all about flashy visuals and high-tech gadgets, which is a shift from my previous belief that understanding and excelling in your work should come first. I’ve started conforming by considering a Mac for its design appeal and engaging in the local culture of formal attire and provocative questions. To fit in with the university culture, I’ve begun socializing during lunch breaks and balancing work with occasional relaxation at home. Despite my reluctance towards posturing, I’m adapting to this environment, finding parallels between academic life and earlier school experiences, where impressing the authority was key. Currently, I’m grappling with a challenging PhD project involving complex algorithms to analyze brain network properties. Despite setbacks and delays, including working around a colleague’s limited availability and an unpredictable supervisor, I’m pushing forward and remain optimistic about overcoming these obstacles.
Work, Work, and Strange Events in the Lab
It’s February already, and the relentless pace of work is making it hard to enjoy any free time. Lately, I’ve been dealing with unsettling changes in the lab, particularly the recent expulsion of a skilled female PhD student whose project failed despite her best efforts. The fact that all recent departures from the lab have been women raises troubling questions. With a statistically low chance of this happening by chance, it suggests a possible bias or discrimination against women in the lab, especially during budget constraints. As someone aiming to become a good leader, I’m committed to supporting and ensuring the success of women in my future lab. It’s clear that women in male-dominated fields face unique challenges, and I intend to advocate for a fair and inclusive environment.
What Leads To Success in Learning?
Success in learning hinges on staying in touch with trends, building connections, and maintaining effective communication while embracing a flexible yet clear goal and a winner’s mindset. Despite initial challenges in the Netherlands, including high publication demands, I’ve found surprising success with a math publication and a revitalized project, feeling ahead of my colleagues. My enjoyment of light-hearted shows and unique quirks boosts my energy and provides insights into success, highlighting the importance of determination and personality over mere talent.
Hardcore Beginnings in Grad School
Despite feeling disconnected and buried under a heavy knowledge load, I notice real progress in grasping complex subjects. I am starting to connect fields and consider cognitive science to understand my work better. Above all, I am reclaiming the resilient mindset of my early teens.
Harsh Rules of Dutch PhD Programs
Two months into my PhD in the Netherlands, I feel overwhelmed by the complexity of the program and the high expectations, particularly given the low completion rate and the challenges of theoretical research compared to experimental work. Despite the pressure, I’m discovering hidden gems at the university, like the beautiful lake and insightful lectures from renowned experts, which add a sense of wonder and opportunity to my experience. I’ve learned about the importance of scientific integrity and the strict rules at Donders, reflecting on how even prestigious achievements can be overshadowed by issues of ethics and the need for vigilance in academic integrity.
My First Crisis in My First Job
I am grappling with a growing crisis at work: weak management and pressure to deliver rapid results on a task nobody has cracked. Barely a month in, I am already contemplating leaving. Supportive Dutch colleagues, and some intriguing cultural differences in presentation style, keep me going.
On Intuition and Building a Career In Academia
After moving abroad, I decided to focus on one path instead of juggling several. Learning is a gamble: nobody knows which skills will matter later. Trusting my gut carried me through mathematics, game theory, and finally into neuroscience, and it keeps shaping how I build my academic career.
Searching For a PhD Program Abroad
Lessons from months of researching doctoral programs abroad: don’t narrow your field at the cost of a good supervisor, choose a specific lab rather than a university ranking, read publication histories critically, and weigh the destination country carefully. Plus a few smaller factors that still matter once you leave home.
On the Theory of Human Vision
Reflecting on my time in Sweden and my PhD project on human vision, I explore Interface Theory, which proposes that perception did not evolve to depict reality accurately but to guide adaptive behavior. Perception works like a user interface: it simplifies and processes information to maximize evolutionary fitness rather than precision.